UCP CO-AUDIT
FIELD REPORT:
MUDRUNNER #2

Dear Lurkers:

Here's another UCP co-audit field report from Mudrunner, re the only
co-audit I currently know of in cyberville. Her wins are very typical of
what I have seen and expect from UCP.

Konchok Penday
Technical Writer, GODS CHURCH
<konchok.penday@net-prophet.net>

FOR MORE INFORMATION GOTO GODS CHURCH:
http://net-prophet.net/godshome/godshome.htm
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CO-AUDIT FIELD REPORT FOLLOWS:
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Dear Konchok,

I wanted to let you know a little bit more about the various changes and
realizations that my partner and I have had while using UCP.  Obviously,
several are subjective and unverifiable, but others reflect events in the real world.

Fragmentary beingnesses are very clear to me now; I guess you’d say I’m aware
of my valences, and, although they manifest, I can modify or let them go.

If there’s an upset, it’s at the level of frustration, rather than depression
and apathy, and the time it takes to handle an upset is dramatically reduced,
i.e. minutes and hours rather than days, etc.

The sense of effort and resistance to situations, tasks, and life itself is
falling away.  I truly look forward to sessions now, rather than seeing them
as something I “ought” to do.

I had always thought I was in decent shape regarding seeing mental images--I
could usually recall my dreams and they were in color (sort of)--but now my
dreams are vivid, technicolor, 3D, surround sound experiences.  This goes for
my waking images too, although I actually have fewer pictures coming up.

Things that used to drive me nuts now irritate far less or not at all, e.g.
stupid drivers, environmental noise, my relatives.

Since starting UCP, I’ve been able to faithfully adhere to a nutrition regimen
without falling off the wagon, something I’ve never been able to do before.

I had bought a pair of reading glasses last year.  I haven’t used them in
three months and can read the phone book or other fine print easily.  (Vision
was an item I’d hoped to handle in Scn; I haven’t addressed it specifically in
the co-audit, but it has changed nonetheless.)

People around me are saying I look “younger” or “different”.  I feel that way
too.

I had always been stand-offish and shy (read overt-laden and fearful of
rejection), and I tried to rationalize the nuttiness and cruelty of the world
with an intellectual cynicism.  I can now see where others are coming from. 
It doesn’t make me feel superior; I just understand.  This is very hard
sometimes, because secret self-righteousness acted as a good shield for me (or
so I thought.)  I don’t feel the same old need to control others or get their
agreement that I’m right.

Perhaps the most subjective but most exciting thing is that I feel as though
I’m losing my habituations, even my personality, if you will, but something
cleaner and clearer is emerging.  I can’t claim I’m sane or OT (in the Church
sense), but the changes are becoming more rapid the more I do the process.

It’s wonderful to watch the process virtually run itself; I don’t have to
worry that I’ll make some procedural error and mess things up.  And UCP has
resolved many disparate phenomena (traumatic incidents, fixed ideas, emotional
crashes, betrayals, crazy thinking, etc.), sometimes all in a single session!

You have put together something marvelous, and I would expect you are being
deluged with accolades and successes.

Thank you again,

Mudrunner